Some Days Are Just Harder Than Others

By Deidra Mills

Funny, I got a mood ring yesterday, as an impulse buy of nostalgia, and today, I have seen that thing change so many colors! I suppose my mood has fluctuated since I came into work. I was in a good mood on the drive; listening to music, and enjoying the morning sunrise. However, when I walked into the hotel where I work, I was hit in the face with a mess of unsatisfied guests. They were telling me that it was my fault that they didn’t receive their wake-up calls, and that “this is a serious problem!” I had literally, just walked in the door, and opened my day up with such angry individuals. It kind of took me off guard, and I felt a little overwhelmed. Although, I kept thinking to myself, “it’s not my fault!” I had to do my best to resolve the situation and make the guest happy. The problem is, the guest’s forceful words toward me, made me feel disrespected as a fellow human being.

I felt like all of his anger was misdirected, and I got caught in the cross-fire. All of these emotions came over me, and my eyes began to well up. I thought, “I don’t deserve this! I’m better than this!” I was able to with-hold the crying until the whole situation was resolved. I did my job, the guest got what he wanted, and the problem was resolved. But now, I find myself, behind the wall to the front desk, crying. I can’t stop. I want to quit this job, I want to quit everything! Why? Why are people mean, why is the world unhappy, why do we treat each other this way? I blew the whole issue into a misrepresentation of how everyone and everything is. I just kept hearing myself say, “This isn’t fair”….and then remembering what my mom always told me, “Life’s not fair.” Is it?

There is too much beauty in the world to just look at the negative. Although, getting caught in the whirlwind of our minds, leads us to forget about such things as the natural beauty of a tree, the way the sun shines through the clouds, the song a bird sings, and so much more. It’s easy to fall into that negative thought process. Though, easier is not always better. After my situation with the unsatisfied guest in the morning, I had a decision to make: keep thinking about it, and be upset, or put one foot in front of the other, and keep on going about my day. I decided the latter was the better answer. I had just begun, and I was not ready to call it a “bad day.” I guess I was living in the past, with all of my emotions, but I didn’t want to remain there the duration of the day. I wanted to experience my day, in its entirety. The sun is shining; there is a cool breeze outside. It’s too good to miss. I suppose my conclusion is that life is what you make it. I know there are going to be some days that are harder than others, but I want to enjoy them all! So, the next time someone is rude to me, or I’m having a bad day, I’m going to make the decision to choose happiness. Why not, right?



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